Everything seems to be so wrong and unbearable without him. Im not trying to act pity to gain attention, but thats how I really feel. I have friends who can listen to me but I can sense that they are also losing their patients listening to my rewind story that plays like a recorded tape over and over again… Slowly, I just stop talking about him… I want to talk about him 24/7, I want to tell people how I feel everyday, I want to express myself…I just want someone to listen to my recorded tape… I really miss him,I really really do… I can give up anything just to have him by my side again! He told me he is going away, I told him I will wait, He told me he is not coming back ever, I told him its ok..I will wait until he comes back, He told me give up and get on with my life and find someone better, I told him I will stil wait, He told me Im torturing him and he will be much more happier if I could just leave him alone, I told him I love you, He told me I dont love you and Im not coming back, I told him Please dont do this to me, He told me Just leave me alone and stop calling if you really want to see me being happy, I told him again Please dont do this to me, He told me Im not coming back and if I found a better girl, I will just marry her and go, Let me GO if you really love me and want to see me happy, I told him Please dont leave me, He told me Please stop torturing me, I told him Fine, I wont call you anymore but I will wait for you to come back, He told me Thank God and please dont call me anymore! I ended the call and cried out aloud! I feel so scared, so alone and so insecure! I wonder how am I going to carry on without him… Even if I do, could I ever forget him?? Could I love another guy as much as I love him? Or will the guy show me more love and care compared to him?? Or would I just waste my time waiting for him to come back?? If I really waited for him, will he ever come back?? So many insecurity and so many questions…could be solved if he just says I love you and I want you back! Will he ever say that again?? Here, another question without answer again!
