bufday!!!!

i was so happy on my birthday,thanx 2 my housemates n my frens..i luv u all,muackss… but i was really sad at the same time,i thought puvi will come to see me but he didnt come..my heart wanted him to be with me so much until i actually came back on friday n check my toilet,hoping that he is hiding inside there to surprise me..but 希望越高，跌得越痛…my heart was ripped when i found out that he wasnt there n he didnt come to kampar n didnt even wish me hapy bufday…i was so angry at him but at d same time i just miss him so much. but he promised me that he will come,so i will just wait for him.and i really hope everything goes really well for him,hope he gets whatever he wants n be hapy!!!

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things rily been like hell for me lately..maybe it is my fault but they betrayed me also.. now i know who are my friends n who is my enemy..i will be happier now.. i going to be myself again.. =) because i dont care… ^^

tensed life…

aihh..i have been avoiding facing the world since my stpm result came out..it wasnt too bad bt it just did not fulfill my expectation.i know i shouldnt have done that to my friends,i know it is rily unfair to them since itz not their fault.. wel,im really regretting it nw.. feel like i missed a part of my life.. even now my frens, who i have know for ten years,seem like a stranger to me.. and the worst part is,i created this situation myself… i just want everything to be like the way it use to be.. i want my old frens back.. and i just hope i would never do the same thing to my new friends now,kinda make me feel like my life is meaningless without them… ><

hmm..cum bec to my present life… my mum called today.. i rily didnt feel like talking to her.. d anger from the last incident is still in my heart.. jz feel like she is driving me crazy. so,i jz simply answered her in quite rough voice,i know i hurt her by behaving like this,but i rily want to show her the pain she caused me.. dun  know whether things wil get bec to the way it use to be or not.. hope it will,n i guess it will..cause this is not the first time im angry with my mum… eventually i forget everything n get bec to her.. hehe..

i wonder how is puvi now… he called me around 10.30pm.. he sounded really weird.. im kinda worried about him now..scared that sumthing wil happen to him..u know,my sixth sense..miss him lot.. jz hope he wil forgive me for my rudeness..n also be alright..

hmm..talk too much dy.. need to concentrate on my studies dy..i have exactly 36 hours before my life span development final exam… hope can make it through wil an A… Muruga help me please..

harlo!!!

wow..quite surprising tat i finaly started d new blog..hmm,wat to say le? wan me to make a welcuming speech uh?i dun tink so lor.. wel,u knw wat.. i dun knw wat hantu got into me n yapapa today.. both plannin to suicide,4 wat oo? until now still dun knw d reason.. aih..ask d world wat does love mean.. haha =)

wel,i kinda came down stairs afte havin a stressful fon conversation vth puvi..jz cant take it.. then,saw yapapa standin at d gate there..lik waiting 4 sumone der.. >< sudenly he ask weter wan go new town o not.. n here v go,d plan is to go buy things at 7 11,n guess wat after 15 minutes,v ended up at AL-Bidaya Corner.. n i spent 7 bucks n he spend 10 bucks..wth.. sweat==” lik tiz,both of us wil pokai n start begging at d new town road side at end of tiz month…

then oo..v went to new town again.. jz to buy a coke n a pepsi.. i tink today got very very big hantu got into me n him lor….leng zhai yapapa try to kill himself by swallowing a panadol vth coke.. (aiyo..better buy rat poison lor..lagi cepat dan bagus..hehe)

anyway..still got anothe 28 hours b4 my social psycho final…gambateh lor…